The love of God can turn our sadness to Dancing and our ashes to Beauty…I believe in fact that it will.  

But sometimes I feel like I have to sit with the sadness for a bit.  I don’t want to dwell here but I don’t want to be disingenuous either: sometime it sneaks up on me. 

Do you ever feel like that?

I’ve made the conscious decision to try living without the anti-anxiety and depression medication and really I can only do so because the dark places no longer have the hold on me that they did.  I can do it because I spend time focused on the positive and on getting healthier mind and spirit.

It’s a miracle in itself!  But sometimes, even in the face of gratitude and love and faith and even miracles, it seems, the sadness can creep in.  I’m not even sure altogether why.

Thank you God, that I can honor my emotions without letting them control me.  I look forward to the dancing.  Please take my care and concerns and those problems I cannot identify and change them into purposeful thoughts and actions.  I thank you for taking my loneliness and my fear, my failures and weakness and guilt and  wash it away so I can start again.  

I know I’m not the only one out there who sometimes needs help to see the colors past the black and white.  Help me to see like Renoir.  Amen.

  

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